I can’t believe it’s the end of the month, especially this month. Life has been chaotic, uncertain, and just simply crazy. I should have known it was going to be crazy since it started with Michael coming home with the stomach bug (which I never, thankfully, got). As I’m now in full swing of my second trimester, my brain is ready to make all sorts of decisions that are just not makeable at the moment, which brought some unneeded and definitely unwanted stress.
While I can’t go into details about it, I wanted to share something pretty incredible. One day in this month, I wrote out all of the things I was worried about, just so I would get them out of my head. Literally, eight days later, all of the things I was worried about had some answer to them. Granted, some of them were “wait until such and such happens,” but it wasn’t this big unknown void that I felt I was standing in front of anymore. Actual plans and options started to materialize with little work from me.
This month, in our small group, we each shared one word needs that we could pray for each other. My word was peace. Well, Michael took that word and ran with it. Every morning, he prayed that I would have peace in that day, no matter what was happening. To say he’s been amazing throughout this pregnancy would be an understatement. He goes above and beyond for me every day, even if his own day was particularly stressful. Even though we have always been a team in our marriage, it feels like it’s morphed into this super-team. Without a word, we just seem to pick up the slack for one another and support each other every day. I’ve never felt closer to him, and I can tell it’s made a difference to me in my own life. I feel more relaxed…more, at peace.
But this feeling of peace has gone beyond the circle of my marriage. I feel it in my community as well. Every conversation I have has been so uplifting. We’ve received so many unexpected blessings from people, that I can’t even begin to recount all of them. I have been encouraged in any future decisions that whatever I decide, I have a force of people surrounding me, ready to be in my corner no matter what.
Even though my husband and my community have given me more peace that I could have imagined, I know that all of this is really a gift from God. He has answered my prayers over and over again. He has made his presence known, even in my most oblivious moments. I can’t glorify and thank him enough for the peace he has given me over these past two years, and continues to grant me throughout these transitions in my life. I don’t feel like I deserve the things he’s given my little family this month, and I’m just in awe of it all. He is truly the one in control, and for that I am totally thankful, and at peace.