I’m the kind of reader who will stay up late reading the next chapter if the last chapter ends on a sad note, or a cliff hanger. That’s how the year 2014 ended for me. Last year was quite an adventure, to say the least. We went on our first cruise. I went to New York and renewed my love for new things, new people and new cultures. I got more involved in my community, took a Spanish course, and learned more about people who were nothing like me. I got pregnant, and that pregnancy brought new experiences that I had never had before. But the story of last year ended with the premature loss of our daughter and a surreal time of both grief and celebration during the month of December.
Before I knew that our daughter had passed away, I was already working on my goals. There’s just something about the autumn season, right before the holidays, that makes me look ahead to things I might want to experience or accomplish in the new year. With the idea of a family on my mind, my goals started to take shape under the umbrella of one big objective – to be the kind of woman I would want my daughter to be.
I don’t want to change that goal. I know that someday God is going to bless me with children, and I don’t want to wait until another positive pregnancy test to work on my priorities. So, I created my goals with my future children in mind. I want to instill some kind of accountability to this process. I’ve heard that sharing your goals raises the likelihood that you will keep those goals, so here are my goals for 2015:
A Better Relationship with God
- Start a personal morning Bible study – I’ve been wanting to do something more in depth than meditate on a devotional thought in the morning for a few years now. I have something I am going to try for eight weeks, starting on Sunday. I will let you know how it goes.
- Maintain a personal prayer journal – I haven’t always been the best at keeping a journal, but this year I want to combine the daily personal journal with a prayer journal. I’ve gotten a lot of ideas to try so far, so I’ll let you know what is working for me.
Honoring My Husband
- Send my husband Words of Affirmation every day – This is his love language, and one that’s not my best language to communicate. I’ve already gathered some great ideas, so if they work, then I will be sharing them with you.
- Have weekly prayer times specifically directed about my husband – I pray for my husband regularly, but this is more about using scripture and setting aside time to really focus on his health – spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. I may expound on this in a later post.
Living A Healthier Life
- Start running again – I stopped running on a regular basis a year ago, so I hope to get back into it this year.
- Eat healthier and drink more water – This isn’t about starting a diet, but more about drinking the basic 8 cups a day, eating more fish and vegetables, and adding healthy, easy recipes to our repertoire.
Get My House in Order
- Find a good home schedule that allows me less time cleaning and more time with family – I want to teach my future children to take care of their things, but not at the expense of the relationships in their life. It’s all about finding a good balance that works for our family.
- Work on projects set aside in the kitchen, library, and master bedroom – Every year, I focus on a few rooms to update or reorganize. As I complete these projects, I intend to share them with you.
Become a Better Employee at my Job
- Create an efficient and organized way to complete work tasks – Last year brought new work tasks as well as maintaining old ones. I know this year will bring on more of that, so I want to be able to honor God and my employer by finding ways to do my job to the best of my ability.
- Discover ways to defeat unfocused or unmotivated times during work (specifically the lull in the afternoon) – I love my job, but I still struggle with moments where I am unfocused or lack motivation. I know there are lots of ideas and resources online to help curb these moments, so I plan to try some and see if they help.
Being Involved in my Community
- Volunteer with the SPCA – I used to work with the local shelter before I got married, and I’ve wanted to get back into volunteering with this organization. It’s a true passion of mine, and I want my kids to pursue their passions.
- Focus on better and earlier fundraising ideas for the Alzheimer’s Association – Last year, while I did participate in the fundraiser, I didn’t feel like I devoted a lot of time or energy to this organization like I really wanted to, so I plan to do more this year.
Developing Personal Time
- Explore a new (or old) hobby each month – This one is pretty self-explanatory, but basically, I just want to try some new or old hobbies and see if they might be something I want to pursue in the future. I’m only going to do one project or focus for one month so I’m not investing a whole lot of time in something that I may not like.
- Schedule a pamper/relaxation time each month – I always feel like this seems selfish, however I know that when I do allow myself a massage or pedicure every now and then, I tend to handle stress better.
I plan to share throughout the year ideas that have helped or are helping me accomplish these goals. At the beginning of each month, I will do a general update on how it’s going, so that I stay focused on what I’m trying to accomplish and keep track of how I’m doing.
As far as the rest of the blog, I plan to post how I normally do – writing when I feel compelled to write. I imagine that I will have several update kind of blogs coming up, as we continue along our journey after miscarriage. I have been amazed at the community that has formed around this topic of grief, healing, and hope. I think I’ve forgotten how much people go through in this life, both happy moments and sad, and the camaraderie we all crave during these moments. It truly makes me want to share my life with all of you, to connect and relate on whatever levels we do.
I’m so looking forward to this new year. The past several years have been wild, so I imagine that 2015 will be no different. I can’t wait to share my adventures and thoughts, hopes and dreams with you. Happy New Year!