This month has been pretty eventful for me. There have been work functions, volunteer opportunities, travel, and several in between things. However, there were two things that took up a large chunk of the month of May.
The first was a car accident. Now, the actual accident happened at the end of April, but the repair part of it happened in the middle of May. During that time I had a rental car to get me to and from work.
The second was the foster puppy who lived with us for two weeks. I mentioned her in my previous post. Working with her took up every free moment of my time during those two weeks. Even though I enjoyed working with her, I was glad to spend some time with my husband and dogs this week.
In both of these situations, I was entrusted with something that wasn’t mine for a very short time. When I referred to the rental car and the foster puppy, I made sure not to describe them as mine, especially with the foster puppy because she would have never left our home if I started calling her my puppy, even my foster puppy, on a regular basis.
I realized, however, that nothing is really ours on this earth. Everything we are entrusted with, one day we will have to give back or leave behind. I don’t really think of myself as someone who clings to my material things, but I still think that they can become a part of my identity and affect how I interact with the world.
So, I have decided to fast from the “possessive” for the month of June. This means, that I will not use the words “my”, “mine”, or “belongs to me”. There are a few exceptions. One, if the word or phrase is in a song, then I will say it, of course. Two, if there is a particular situation in public where it will convey necessary information to a business (like talking about my car accident with insurance companies). And three, in reference to relationships (like my mom, or my dad). Although I will try not to, I can understand when these might come up in conversation.
Also, my birthday (or the day I was born) is in the month of June. I might give myself that day to not think about it, but it will be in the middle of the month, so I might have a handle on it by then.
Basically, I just want to see if changing my language also changes my perception. I hope to no longer see things in this world as mine, but instead see them as gifts that God has entrusted to me for a little while, still taking care of them, but not clinging to them or using them as part of my identity.
Wish me luck. I encourage you to try this along with me, even if it’s just for a day, and let me know your experience with fasting from possession.