Several weeks ago, in another post, I can’t remember which one, I removed two paragraphs because I realized it didn’t fit with the rest of what I was writing. I held onto those two paragraphs until I had another day to dig deeper into it. And when I opened up the Word document to jog my memory on this topic, this is what I read:
It’s really, really easy to barrier yourself in this life. All of our houses have garages that close, doors that lock, fences that border. Our phones come with a do not disturb function on it and caller id, but before that, we were using voicemail to screen our calls (or was that just me?). We have been moving towards isolation with furious speed for decades. We blame the tools of this world – smart phones, social media, the internet – for all of it, but we, mankind, created those tools.
This is not a declaration against social media or cell phones or even the internet. God is in every connection. We can’t encrypt against his omnipresence. We can’t go incognito from his omniscience. And I believe he works as much in the virtual world as he does in the physical one. You can’t block God.
This month has been particularly hard for me. The end of this month will bring the one year anniversary of losing our second daughter. And just like with our first, the weeks leading up to it have been hard. Like I said earlier this week, I feel drained by any social interaction, so I’ve chosen to take some time to myself.
Then, I read these two paragraphs and realize how appropriate they are as a reminder. Even when I’m feeling the need to distance myself to work through grief, it is such good news that God remains connected. And he has made himself known to me – through nature, my dogs, even conversations online with friends and strangers. It’s so amazing to have people check in at random, but perfectly timed, moments.
So, thank you, friends. Thank you to those of you who have commented on my blog recently. You have made my heart smile. Thank you to those who have sent private messages or small reminders to let us know that you are praying for us this month. It has meant so much more than you will ever know. In the midst of pain and grief, I can look to my Heavenly Father who provides for me, and I know that I am blessed.