I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.
When I am anxious, sleep is the first thing to go. My mind races and plays through my day and every conversation. Or my fears creep in from the edges, almost shaking me awake. It takes faith to sleep sometimes, to let go of the thoughts or the day. I guess that’s why the phrase is “to fall asleep.” Kind of like a trust fall, trusting that you will wake up in the morning.
David was on the run again. This time it was from his own son. I can only imagine how tired he must have been. How much his heart was breaking.
In the midst of all of this, he writes a Psalm acknowledging God as a shield and protector. Even when others have lost faith in him, he doesn’t lose faith in God. His anxiety must have been incredibly high. He didn’t know how this was going to play out, but he knew that it wasn’t going to be good.
Right in the middle he writes the above words. To me, it’s an ultimate sign of faith, to drift into vulnerable sleep while living on the run, trusting that God would protect and sustain him. That he would wake up with the energy to face whatever comes next.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. But I want to have the faith of David that no matter what happens, God will protect and sustain me through it all.