Waiting sucks. According to the New York Times in 2012, Americans wait 37 billion hours in line each year. In a world that values the quick and immediate, waiting just seems to be something abnormal. I never thought I would have to wait for children. There were so many things to grieve when I lost… Continue reading You’re Not Late
Today in America, we celebrate Thanksgiving. For a lot of people, this holiday can be very controversial. Historically, it is a reminder of land and lives that were taken. It can also be a reminder here in the present of people who are missing from around the table, through loss or estrangement. It can be… Continue reading Giving Thanks
It's been a couple months since I talked about being diagnosed with Post Partum Anxiety, so I thought I would give a little update and reflection on how I'm doing now. In two words, much better. But it was definitely a journey to get to this point. I was already in therapy at the time,… Continue reading Postpartum Anxiety Update
Sam is about to be 4 months old in a couple weeks. I've learned a lot about myself and him in these last few months. Just like any life stage, there has been a definite learning curve to the adjustments. So, I thought I would share some general things I've learned. Get your people. Your… Continue reading How I Survived The First Three Months
It's been a couple of months since I gave an update on our two pups and how they are doing with our new addition. Our rat terrier is still apathetic towards the little boy. I think the only thing she realizes is how much he encroaches on her snuggle time with Michael. Any time he… Continue reading A Dog Update
The past few months since our son was born, I've gotten a couple questions asked that I thought would be good to address on here as well. Having a child after pregnancy loss tends to color the world just a little bit differently, and seemingly innocuous questions may end up being more awkward than intended. … Continue reading Some A’s for the Q’s
I waited five long years. Through miscarriage and stillbirth, I finally gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby boy. I crossed the finish line. Or so I had thought. When I reached that finish line, I looked up and saw I had several more laps to go. And, guys, I was exhausted. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. … Continue reading My Experience with PostPartum Anxiety
So, this month, I turned another year older. Of course, this birthday was super special because I had a precious little boy to snuggle all day (although to be completely transparent, the boy was quite a grump on my birthday, but I still managed a snuggle or two). Michael also fed my insatiable book habit… Continue reading Birthday
It’s the number one question I get. So, I thought I would answer that question. For our rat terrier, the boy is nothing special. She hasn’t shown much interest in him, only a few sniffs here and there. The one time she does notice his presence is when our lap is full. It’s a new… Continue reading How Are The Dogs Doing?
Michael and I are pleased to announce that our son, Sam, arrived this week. She named him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.” (1 Samuel 1:20) We are over the moon excited and completely exhausted. In anticipation of this event, I filmed a video early that ties up the Dear Future Self/Pregnancy… Continue reading DFS: The Arrival
