Today is my due date.  Was my due date.  Today was supposed to be met with excitement, nervousness and anticipation, but instead it’s met with reminders of my grief, loss and empty womb.  Though I thought my world was going to stop today, the sun still came up, people are still on the roads going… Continue reading Today

The Grieving Process

One of the common responses I received from people in our life who have supported and loved us in this experience was “Grieve how you need to grieve.” I’m a pretty blunt person, so I didn’t think this would be a problem. However, it wasn’t the temptation to hide how I was feeling, it was… Continue reading The Grieving Process

Grief, Loss and Thanksgiving: Part Three

Part 3: Thanksgiving It’s been a week since I first got the diagnosis that I had lost our baby.  Despite the realities of our situation that I’ve experienced this week, I wanted to take a moment to acknowledge the silver lining blessings I’ve experienced as well.  I tend to describe my personality as an “annoying… Continue reading Grief, Loss and Thanksgiving: Part Three

Grief, Loss and Thanksgiving: Part Two

Part 2: Tuesday the 25th and Wednesday the 26th – WARNING, this will get graphic and detailed.  I will not blame you if you skip this post. Tuesday went by in a slow blur.  Michael took care of every meal, as I spent most of the day on the couch.  At some point either Monday… Continue reading Grief, Loss and Thanksgiving: Part Two

The Long Awaited Long Post

This wasn't the post I intended to write.  In fact, none of this has gone in any way that I planned, which being a planner and organizer at heart, really turned my world upside-down. It started in the month of March.  I got this crazy fatigue.  I was sleeping in every morning, which I haven't… Continue reading The Long Awaited Long Post