Miscarriage and the Media

When I had my first miscarriage, I didn't feel like there was much conversation about pregnancy loss in the media or in my community.  One of the consequences of silence is the isolation women feel when they are going through their grief.  That's why I talk about it.  It's why I'm open about our journey, even… Continue reading Miscarriage and the Media

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A Typical Day

My friends are amazing.  They are so supportive and aware of my struggle with starting a family.  I know I’m pretty open about it because I feel like God has put it on my heart to share.  I’m so happy that other, more public figures, are sharing these things as well.  It happens so much more often than… Continue reading A Typical Day

Grief, Loss, and Thanksgiving (Part 4)

I've been sitting, looking at the blinking cursor in front of me for a little while.  I have so many words to say, and yet, none at all.  A year ago, I found out I was no longer pregnant. I went into the hospital and gave birth to my stillborn baby girl. I do want to take… Continue reading Grief, Loss, and Thanksgiving (Part 4)

Something To Remember For The Holidays

I’m writing this week more for myself than for anyone else.  But every now and then you need a reminder of this reality, but I think it’s especially hard to remember going into the holidays at the end of the year. It’s okay to not be okay. I think about those people who have lost… Continue reading Something To Remember For The Holidays

Another Step in the Journey of a Miscarriage

I haven’t really talked lately about what has been going on in my journey to become a parent.  Waiting on God’s timing can be a very frustrating experience, as I’m sure all of you know.  That biological clock is no joke. Losing my daughter is always in the back of my head.  I wonder in… Continue reading Another Step in the Journey of a Miscarriage

Mother’s Day

With Mother’s Day coming up, I’ve spent a lot of time in reflection this past couple of weeks.  Recently, I was asked if it bothers me that all the women of the Bible who suffered with infertility ended up having babies.  The short answer is no.  Just the fact that these stories were included in… Continue reading Mother’s Day

Today

Today is my due date.  Was my due date.  Today was supposed to be met with excitement, nervousness and anticipation, but instead it’s met with reminders of my grief, loss and empty womb.  Though I thought my world was going to stop today, the sun still came up, people are still on the roads going… Continue reading Today

The Journey of Worth

Having a miscarriage evokes a lot of feelings.  Grief.  Loss.  Pain, both emotional and physical.  Frustration.  Confusion.  There are a lot of lessons I've learned as well, and I'm so grateful and encouraged by all the connections I've made on this path. I feel like God prepared me a lot for this season in my… Continue reading The Journey of Worth

Letting Go

I love my husband. You guys don't even know half of the amazing things this man has done for me through the course of our courtship and marriage, but especially in the last two months. We have become so much closer over the last year than we ever had before, and I'm so grateful for… Continue reading Letting Go

Scars

When I was three, I was in a car accident.  My dad, mom, baby brother and I were headed either to or from home during the holidays.  My parents told me that a semi truck knocked our car off the road, and it slid down an embankment, turned upside down and spun to a stop. … Continue reading Scars