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A Personal Note For The Weekend

Oh my goodness, you guys. This week has been a crazy year, hasn’t it? I remember joking that January seemed to go on forever, but then came COVID-19 and quarantine, and now peaceful protests and violent encounters happening every day across our country.

In the midst of everything, my uncle passed away this week.

I don’t talk much about my extended family, or really a whole lot about my family in general since the birth of my son. I wasn’t exactly close to my uncle. Growing up, I saw him for only a couple of days a year around Christmas. He used to make the best manicotti on Christmas Eve.

Even though I wasn’t very close to him, I know my family is hurting. This is my dad’s younger brother. My grandmother and my uncle’s two adult children are having to make difficult decisions this week, and I can’t be there in person to support them. Though I am supporting all of them from afar through phone calls, texts, and Zoom. It’s all just still very difficult.

Grief is weird. We grieve pretty much any time there is change or transition in our life. And there are a lot of people grieving right now for so many reasons. There is so much pain and sadness, that I feel tempted to put my own grief on the back burner to focus on others.

But the funny thing about grief is that it really doesn’t let you do that. When it needs attention, it demands it. I’ve felt that weight this week, physically, mentally, and emotionally. It’s affected my ability to carry out every aspect of my life.

So, I’m going back to the basics this weekend of making sure I have space to grieve loss, grieve with others, and still manage to do the day to day (I mean, I’ve still got a toddler running around here, I can’t let it go to total chaos). I’m still committed to learning and listening. That’s not going to stop. So I’m taking the opportunity to slow down, to pay attention to what needs to be done right now and to listen to where God is leading me next.

Anticipating December

The final month of the year.  I know I said this last month, but what a year this has been.  Filled with anxiety, hope, celebration, mourning, remembering, and joy.  Before I get into the final anticipation of this month (and a small announcement), let’s look back at November.

I am still reading the book I started in November.  And I didn’t get much writing done either.  But I did get some done, and that’s really what I wanted to accomplish.  I wanted to flex my creative muscle and see if I could carve out some time to do that.  That, plus the big home projects this month in the library and family room took up a lot of my free time.

And I did finally get a lot of donations out of the house.  I went through my Christmas stuff, got rid of a few smaller trees and purchased one big tree for the family room.  I also consolidated other holiday decor and moved where I store them to the garage.  I’m still in this process, but over half of it is done and it feels great to free up some space in some closets.

Thanksgiving was great.  My mother-in-law came to visit.  We ate good food and had fun family time.  Anniversaries surrounding the holiday were a little rough, but I gave myself grace and space and remembered and appreciated the moments of family and faith.  God is good.  I’m so grateful.

Sam is 7 months old.  He’s officially mobile, army crawling pretty much wherever he wants.  He still does so well playing on his own but loves to laugh and cut up with both me and his dad.  Teething has been an adventure, but I think one has finally come through.  As my husband says all the time, “He’s such a grown-up baby.”

Now to December.

anticipation
  • Christmas.  There is so much I’m looking forward to this holiday.  It’s the first with Sam, and though he won’t remember this particular Christmas compared to the ones in the future, this one will have a special place in my heart.  I’ve been waiting five years to share this holiday with one of my children.  Of course, there will probably be some bittersweet moments as well as I remember our daughters, but overall, I suspect (and anticipate) a joyous time with friends and family.
  • Reflecting and Looking Ahead.  December is a time for me to look back over the year and start making plans into the new year (although let’s face it, I really probably start this process in November or October).  This is the month I really try to take time out to brainstorm and meditate on all the gifts that God has given this year, all the lessons I’ve learned, and how I can learn and grow in 2019.  I really want to hone the things I want to do in the new year, so I’m going to take the time this month to do just that.
  • A Bloggy Break.  And really because of the two above anticipations, I feel that I need to take a little break from blogging for the rest of the year.  I have never taken a break in December, and it almost seems counter-intuitive because there is SO much to blog about with the holidays and everything.  But I’m going to take the time I usually devote to blogging and spend it looking ahead.  Plus, we are going to be so busy this month with parties and family and all the holiday goodies to come.  I will be active on Instagram so you can follow me there if you wish (Katyslifestory)

Since this is my last blog of the year, I want to wish everyone a Happy December, Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas.  I hope you are able to spend time with people you love this month and make wonderful memories.  I hope you look into the new year with anticipation.  And I will talk to you again in 2019!