Grateful Encouragement

The month after my daughter died, I focused on physically healing.  I took the steps I knew I needed to take in order to get healthy or at least put myself on the path to becoming stronger and healthier.  You all were there for me, with encouraging words and kindness, and it held me up in the dark spaces, more than you will ever know.

The next month, I started to look at my life, trying to figure out what my next move would be.  Here were a few of the realities.

  1. Michael and I agreed that we wanted to try again, and we would after we took some time to heal physically and emotionally.  Based on doctor recommendations, we decided 4-6 months would be a good time frame for that healing, which put us trying again at the beginning of next year, 2017.
  2. I am very blessed to have the opportunity to stay at home right now and through my next pregnancy.  Since I will have an enormous amount of doctor visits and tests when I do get pregnant, getting another job anytime soon would not be ideal. Therefore, it is not the path I choose to take at this time.
  3. Since a lot of my support has come from the online community here, I wanted to find a way to connect more, go deeper, share my life with you so that if and when I do get pregnant again, I can have you walk with me on that journey, just as you have done these past few months.

I know that having a supportive community like you guys is not always a common thing on the internet.  The internet is full of trolls and anonymous comments who spread hate.  But I’ve been lucky and I know I’m lucky to have this community that spreads love and encouragement.  For that I am grateful.

But the whole reason I continued blogging after my first miscarriage, the whole reason I shared the deaths of my first and second daughters were to encourage others who felt alone.  Isolated.  Living without the community that I so deeply cherish.  I know how lucky I am to have you because I’ve read and heard story after story of people who don’t have this kind of support.

And I feel protective of these people.  No one should have to feel alone and isolated.  I know that I can’t fix the world’s problems.  I don’t think that’s what I’m called to do on this earth.  I’m called to love.  Love God.  Love Others.  And the number one way I know I can love others is to encourage.  Encourage others who are walking through the pain.  And help others to be beacons of encouragement.

So, in an effort to connect deeper and to encourage others, I started a Facebook page.  On the page, I share my YouTube videos and my blog posts.  And I will admit I was afraid of how I would be received.  Of what people would think about me.  I should know by now that I would get loved in return.  I’m blown away by all of the people who have already liked my page.  Thank you so much for supporting me.

Right now, I’m doing something a little fun on my page.  Every Friday until Christmas, I’m doing a giveaway to promote encouraging others.  The winner of the giveaway receives two $5 Starbucks gift cards.  One for them, and one for someone in their life who needs encouragement.  All you have to do is comment on the post on my Facebook page in order to be eligible.  So, if you want to participate, you are more than welcome to.


The reason I’m doing all of this is to bring you on the journey of adding to our family, but also to help you encourage others in your own life story.  I don’t know where this journey will take us.  But I know that no matter what, God will be walking with us, and I will do my darndest to try to point him out along the way.


Weekly Check In 1/10/2015

This post is just a bit of housekeeping for my blog, little tidbits that I wanted to share from this past week that really don’t make an entire post.  I think I’m going to try and do a check in each week for the month of January, just see how it goes.  If it works out well, then I may do this longer.  I guess it just depends on what’s going on at the moment.

This week was cold.  I realize that cold is quite relative, but for this girl from New Orleans, anything below freezing outside justifies a day spent at home.  I stayed in most of the week, which suited my dogs just fine.  It just meant more snuggling under the blankets.

This may be TMI, just forewarning, but I started my first cycle this week.  It was another reminder of reality, but it also meant that it was one cycle down of the three I have to have before we can look at trying again.  I don’t know that we will actually start trying at that point, though.  I have another emotional check up in March with my doctor that will help with that decision.  Still, it’s good to know that we are moving closer to more possibilities.

Since I stayed in a lot due to the weather, I watched a few Netflix movies.  I enjoyed “In Your Eyes” and “Liberal Arts” enough to watch them all the way through.  Out of those two, I really liked “In Your Eyes” – a sweet, sci-fi type romance that didn’t have the most perfect plotline (hated that the girl was married and fell in love with another man), but it was pretty light and sweet all the same.  Neither are kid friendly, but the “romantic” scenes were handled without complete nudity, which is sad when movies today are almost expected to show a girl’s chest or a man’s butt to really “set the scene.”  But I digress.

Our church is offering a GriefShare class on Wednesday nights.  Michael and I went this past week to check it out.  The class consists of a video, some discussion and a workbook to do throughout the week.  It was good to share our story with the teacher, Curtis.  He has a real heart for ministry and I intend on going back next week as well.

This morning we went to the other side of Dallas for Coral Fest.  My husband is a reef keeper, which basically means that he maintains coral and fish in a saltwater aquarium.  At Coral Fest (as well as a couple other events throughout the year) vendors from all over the country come together to sell pieces of coral (called frags) that they have grown from colonies.  Some of these frags or coral can be sold for hundreds of dollars, and some are sold for ten or twenty bucks, depending on the variety and size.  Michael saves up for these events and purchases pieces for his tank.  He has an eye for selecting beautiful coral and a talent for caring for them once they are added to the tank.  It’s also neat to see the community come together.  There is such a camaraderie at events like this.

This evening, we saw “Night at the Museum 3.”  I wanted to watch something light and fun, and it was.  I really enjoyed that trilogy.  When Robin Williams came on the screen for the first time, there was an audible gasp in the theater.  I definitely cried a little during that scene as well as some other heartfelt scenes towards the end (I won’t spoil it because I think it’s a movie worth watching).  I went to the museum last April, and it was neat to see the exhibits and the front of the museum again.  It’s now on my bucket list to visit the one in London!

So that was my first week of the new year.  I want to thank you again (I’ll probably be saying this a lot – at least until the feelings of overwhelming gratitude and amazement subside) for walking with me through this blog.  Your comments, both in person and online have really encouraged me.  You have definitely made my steps lighter on this journey, and I love you all so much.  Thank you, thank you, thank you.